“The Old Year has gone. Let the dead past bury its own dead. The New Year has taken possession of the clock of time. All hail the duties and possibilities of the coming twelve months!” – Benjamin Franklin
Walking all alone through ups and downs of life is really not easy. It's been quite a while that I feel like I'm all alone battling all the trials that comes my way. I won the battle sometimes, but most of the time I'm a loser.
I'm now in the most crucial state of life, the most difficult crossroads that I don't seem to know which road to follow and what is waiting for me ahead. I'm totally confused now and feelin like I'm lost in the middle of my own mess. I feel so tired of doing all these things over and over again. I need change. Who doesn't want change anyway?
I need complete change now but I just don't really know how to start. I feel like I'm not getting anything with all of these, that i don't even feel the spirit of progress in all aspects. I'm not growing at all and feel like I'm stucked with all of these shit.
I just hope that one day, I could find myself in the right track and being happy. Not completely happy but at least happy in my own definition of happiness. Life sometimes cruel, and makes us feel to finally give up and end up everything but I learned somehow on how to look at the bright side of everything but I couldn't find contentment at all. I am still searching for things, may not be material at all. Things in life that will bring me contentment. I live life as it is but I sometimes feel like this is not the life i dreamt i could live up.
I still don't know what's the right thing to do in order for me go through all of these. I need direction, motivation, inspiration and confident to finally move up.
As the new year blossoms, may the journey of my life be fragrant with new opportunities, my days be bright with new hopes and my heart be happy with love!
Happy New Year!
